遗弃

被遗弃的部落格~
我心底的一个地方~

一件不可思议的事~

阳光突然消失了...

留下冷冷灰灰的天空，

此刻，我的心...也是漆黑一片的~

something?

It's the second time in the month...

Is there any message for me?

or I am just being suspicious?

I don't know what is the meaning...but..

I have cracked egg with double yolks TWICE!

1st is on 010111 and today..120111~

hmmmm...

I was surprise, really!

OMG!

(⊙o⊙)

I hope its just my luck!

GOOD LUCK for my exam tomorrow and for my friends too!

加油！

For HER, my HER forever!

Never thought that i would do this...

but I want to say that...

"I am proud of her, and I love her!"

She is my sister, JooPhin!❤

I know she has been the one who fight with me, argue with me,just like dog and cat...

but our relationship is like "Tom and Jerry"!

we fight, we argue, but we cannot live without each other!

I have much much more to express but...in summary...

I just want to tell her..

"My dear sister, I am very very really proud to have u as my sister. Thank you for being in my life..

Thank you mummy and daddy too! Thanks to destiny....and I DAMN miss you now!"

Teehee! ;)

I wanted to write a long long post for u...but I am not so romantic!

p/s: "you are grown up...and our cousins too..and this made me feel OLD...LOL!"

❤cool conductor❤

080111

虽然是想写一写2010の故事....
但是时间不足，就先写今天早上的Golf体验吧~

一大清早（咳咳~对UK来说是很早因为太阳还没出现嘛...）就去打高尔夫...
我喜欢早上冷冷清清的感觉，好像整个世界属于你的...嗯~
一路上有雪又有冰，我其实真的很讨厌雪啊，把我的裤脚，鞋子都弄脏，但是看看他那白白亮亮，那么纯洁的样子，还会被他吸引哦~(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……
忍不住就拍下几张照片了.....

路途中一步一步把脚步印在雪冰上...=D
到了driving range，只有工作人员和一个老伯伯~
遇见了我前前任教练，哈哈!
他没带帽子的样子与平时差好远哦，有点吓到！


打着打着...太阳醒来了~
我最期待这一刻了...好幸福的感觉！

漂亮吧

^^

回去途中，发现自己的脚印还在~就跟着之前的脚步走回去~

踏着自己的脚印一路走回去的感觉好真不错~

看看动物的脚印，有点花样哦~

冰冻了~

到了宿舍...

Morning, NEW HALL

要加油复习了！！！

希望20110108美好一天~

接下来的考试期间也一样哦！！！

所谓的2010就这样过了~
发生了多多少少的事，有些深刻在脑海里，埋葬在心中; 有些只是擦肩而过，掠过眼前就忘了~

现在的我有点忙，就在此停笔吧~
抱歉了部落格~
忙完这学期的大考，希望假日有时间跟你聊心吧~

希望2011会是个好的一年，我不希望太多~只要GOOD enough就够了~


❤谢了~

Being 1st Year

I'm now officially a First Year medic.

Q: What is my feeling?

A: Complicated. Excited. Nervous. Worry. Stress.

Q: How is the beginning of the course?

A: Should be very difficult. Tougher than SFP and IFM.

Q: What I am doing recently?

A: studying, studying & only studying. =BUSY=

>.< 

I know my life is different now. Not like previous course..

aaawwwwh~

I dont know what to write now.

I just know...

I am always rushing for this and that, don't really have time to chill out anymore..

(╯□╰)

o(>﹏<)o

(⊙ o ⊙ )

Bye to J' Spirit Bloggie and Facebook for awhile.. ;(

I have something to say, many to write...

But I just don't know where to start...

haix~

Talk about recently...

I dreamed  almost every night..

before that I can't sleep...

I kept thinking about stuffs when I was young, memories in the past...

Kindergarden, Primary, Secondary, etc.

I don't understand why will I thinking about the past...

Maybe I'm trying to retrive the information that I've loss...

Retrive memories which have stored deep in my brain; those memories that are hard to remember...

Maybe I'm trying to remember those memories that never form...

I thought of my kindergarden buddy, I thought of my primary schoolmate who I never meet after Standard 2... I remember those times when I spent with my primary buddies, I thought of secondary friends who I never meet after graduate...

Yet..why can't I remember what I did last summer?

How was I when in secondary school?

in primary school?

in kindergarden?

baby-hood?

Now I think of it...

Life is so unfair..;(

We can't remember the sweetest memories we owned in our baby-hood...because our neuro system haven't fully develop...

However, I'm glad that there are photos for me to form those memories of my baby-hood..

I'm lucky.. X)

ooooohh~ my sweet memory of baby-hood..

wishing to be back in my baby times...

xd

Gosh...

;( 

It's almost time to leave my sweet home..again~

time flies...no one would miss this...no one could stop it..

what will be will be..=D

so I will just move on with my life no matter what I face...

this is part of my life..my challenge...

There would not be a life without challenge...we face challenges since birth...

just like learning to breath, to speak, to crawl, to climb, to walk...etc..

We learn from the challenges we faced!

Oh yes! From now on, I have to be brave whenever I face any challenge(s)~

no more crying, no more blaming...

this is life..My LIFE!

Leaving here would also be the challenges for me...

For me to get out what I have here...the warmness, the heat, the family, the love, the friends, the food, the stuffs...and more~

However, there is always one thing for me to remember all of those - My Memories & Dream...

Quote from 'Mister Pip' by Lloyd Jones, "Dreams are private..."

I love that sentence. No one would know others' dream, ever though sometimes we spoke of our dreams but no one will really know the feeling of your dreams...Dreams belongs to you, and only you...;)

Although it's sad to leave home but I believe it's a journey which everyone would go through...

one day, you would have to leave the place you grew up...

You have to go out, to the real world find for your own world..

your career, your family & eventually your life!

*sigh*

I think I will just say so...when I'm leaving, I'll definitely be sad~ =(

how am I going to leave the place which made up most of my memories...

I really afraid that my world would not belong to here...I mean Malaysia..

From now, I am will only be staying in Malaysia for 3 months a year, almost 9 months in UK~

whenever I am going to UK, I said "I am going back" instead of "I'm leaving..."

An uncle reminded me yesterday, (not in a straight way)...but I know my mistake...

I am leaving Malaysia, not going back there...

Yet, I really afraid that one day THERE will become my world~

will I belong there? I afraid not cause HERE is my home...

sometimes ...just sometimes, there will seem like a better place for me...

But I know, I can't just leave HERE, where I belong to~ 

Maybe it's still too far, maybe I am worrying too much...but...

I scare that I will have to face IT one day...

That ONE day...

*sigh*

Alright! I'm going to stop thinking...Then continue the list of stuffs I need to do for my summer holidays...the last 3 weeks or less..;(

kar yao for me! 

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感情•时间- 长、短？

何谓时间长短?

感情有期限的吗?

对我而言，

如果时间常挂在嘴边会让感情有了个极限...

你要跟一个人一起多久?

 一年，两年，十年...还是永远?

永远又是几时呢?

如果说2，3年是很久了，那么十年岂不是腻了，厌了?

那还要谈什么永远呢?

不是说不要进入另一个阶段，而是必须看看情况...

我说这些也未必太远了吧~

课程也还有6年，毕业，工作...想想也要10年了...

别说永远，人是会改变的...由不得自己做决定，有些事说变就变...

根本是没有解释，预想不到的~

为何要把感情放个期限?

感情有极限就没有永远了~

我想

若你说，我们在一起的时间很短，可能表示你要在一起更长的时间...还要把这感情线走下去~（永远?）

若你说， 我们在一起的时间很长，可能表示你要进入另个阶段（婚姻?）,或是你腻了，厌了，累了，想把这感情放上句号了...

只想抒发心情.....

❦

I'm learning..

learning from my mistakes..

I'm not always right and I'm willing to correct myself...

sorry for any offence..

^^

Learning to be perfect...

*p/s: no one is perfect..@.@

❦

I've been stopped working in GMC for almost a week..

^^

Not yet playing hard, but helping my mum at AutoCity all the time.

>.<

I'm sad..I've came back for almost a week yet I have not eat THE Malaysian food..

laksa, char kuey teow, hokkien mee, currry mee, lo bak, nasi kandar, roti canai...the list goes on...

Till now, I have not step in any hawker centre..

My life is too sad now..

I miss hawker foods!!!!

Now I've been tied by my mum's shop, no way to run..

Haix..

Who wanna rescue me?

Please.....

遗忘...

我们是否遗忘了一些事物？

人物？

还有回忆？

我好担心，害怕~

When we learned more, we remember more, we tend to forget more memories..

Please don't let them flow away~

Some memories are just too precious to be gone...

02July2010- ILL- full of craps!

I was ill after coming back from work..

it's not because of any contagious diseases (i.e H1N1, HFMD, Influenza A, etc) in the hospital, but myself..

I have eaten the Enoki mushroom which (most of the time) make me vomit due to indigestion..

It was not only that reason, I always take leftover food to work as my lunch.

I am an economical person..

=)

but I believe the food contain some lime juice which make it spoil easily..

so I had food poisoning..

Start with diarrhoea,

follow by discomfort,

then vomit,

fever,

and vomit again. x2

T^T

my poor dad..i vomited in front of him when he came into my room...

he must be shocked or disgusted..

>.<

I almost admit into the hospital...but I am afraid of the branula..

So I ended up with sleeping the whole day..

went to see doctor on Sat 03.07..

then another whole day sleep..

without eating anything,

and make up my mind to stop my hospital placement..

(I dont want to transmit any disease to ICU patients..partly also lazy)

anyway I m voluntary (X salary, I've been scolded "stupid" by Issac)

Sunday..stay in the house whole day again..

sleeping Z.Z

So, Monday, recovered..

loss weight again..now I just have bone with bit of flesh..

told the HR manager..

Dang Dang Dang..

Back in my summer break mood!

o(╯□╰)o

28.06.2010 - 02.07.2010

Last week was a great week for me.. actually it was just Monday till Friday..

I think..Paediatrics is the department that suit me..

hmm..

hopefully I can pursue my career in Pae..

To be honest, I learned a lots there...maybe it's just now..cause I'm not yet a 3rd / 4th year medical student, so I dont have the chance to enter OT..

>.<

The only doctors I was able to follow are the paediatricians..

they are nice!

they taught me..told me everything.

selflessly...

 One of the doctors even told me that, he never regret for becoming a paediatrician..if he got another chance to choose which field he is going to specialize.. He said It would still be paediatrics..

Ermm..that touched me..

It seem to be the answer to my query~

should i make up my mind now?

However..there is still be the double edged sword...

Children are not the most difficult patients to be care of, yet they are also not the easiest patient to be taken care of...

⊙﹏⊙

Sometimes it's quite sad to see an ill child..

An ill child is totally different from normal healthy children who we always see on the streets, mall or elsewhere..running around, playing, laughing and smiling..

Ill babies are different..

They cry, shout or just being quiet...

Usually, the children are not the one worrying about their illness(es) but their family members..(parents, grandparents, siblings, or relatives..)

they don't even know why & how they are ill..what disease they got..or dont know any of their medical history..

(╯_╰)

poor babies...

But the most cheerful things of being in Pae ward was..

seeing the children discharged and bring their smile home..strong & healthy..

在医院工作最开心的是看见他们(小朋友，大人)健健康康，带着微笑地出院，向我说byebye!

^^

不是“再见”，而是“掰掰”( ^_^ )/~~

I realised, doctors sometimes having tough time too..

main problem is communication skills..LOLx..

lucky that we are learning Communication skills in medicine course nowadays..

talking to the family members are scary..>.<

or someone who said : "Doc, I will only admit if there is SINGLE ROOM available.."

Poor doc..have to worry about the patient and also the pedantic family member..

oh gosh~

another problem would be decision making..

sometimes family members dont understand the effort which doctor trying to perform..

at the last time, something would explode and the whole schedule is then screwed...

It's about "to do or not to do?"

the anxiety of doctors vs family members..

(～ o ～)

Alright..I better stop here..

Next blog..is going to be my sickness in the weekends..

=.=

Night Nitex! =)

我是胆小鬼~

T.T

@.@

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28.06.10 First Day at Paediatric ward

Today is the first day at Pae ward...^^

As I expected, it was quiet~

Hehe..

I love kids~

yea...Paediatrics~

LOLx...

the ward is so fun! the nurses are so friendly (mostly morning shift staffs)!

=)

  the doctors are nice too! 

always explain this and that to me..;D

Thanks~

*p/s: but sometimes quite bored, not so busy mah..>.<