...

Everything seem so vague now...

i hope it is not real..

but it's the truth..

I know I'm not the only one who cannot accept this..

but it happened..

there is nothing we can do..

yet...

paying the last respect for HIM...

I'm sad, u're sad..they are sad..everyone is sad..

the sky is GREY and DARK..

i can't see any sunshine now..

i can only feel the cold rain and moist air..

hmm..maybe now is the right time for the volcano eruption + closure of airports, 

so that i stay here..train to be strong, independent and be more mature..growing up..

This is one of the living process and part of growing up..

Now,i really don't know what to say and what to do..

I'm not there..I feel so sorry here..I'll know what to do if i'm back there..

I really need to stop writing..though i got lots to express but i can't do it now..

or else i think i'll burst into tears..and can't make it for my lectures and classes..

right..tears are salty..sound stupid..

i cry because i want to find out where is the tear gland..even more stupid..

"Thank you.."

In my heart...

in my heart...

everything i want to say is in my heart..

HE'll know and they might know...

everything will be clear after weeks or months..