Reflection

Another academy year 2009/10 ended~

It was a really long year for me, from September 2009 till June 2010 (although I came back to Penang in the end of January for 10 days).

I have been exposed to lots of new information this year, in term of physiologically and physically.

It was a tough year, more difficult than I thought (harder than last year)~

In the International Foundation for Medicine 2009/10,

there were 22 students, from all over the world, Malaysia, Thailand, Taiwan, Middle East, etc..

from them, I learned to be independent, learned to be tough, mean, became mature and stronger.

Not just from them, but from the incidents which happened around me.

Let's start my journey...

On the day I left Malaysia September 2009,

then reached there...starting IFM orientation, settling everything, made some rules for my health.

After that, I started my first semester...

This year I had 2 university modules for each semester : 1st is Biology & Physical Chemistry; 2nd is Molecular Biology & Psychology.

To be honest, I found IFM very hard to cope with because the class were too big 22 students compared to last year was just 9 students..and we were divided into 2 groups.I dont really like this class because I dont have much friends and I was not used to some people's attitude. I was moody, quiet, and not active at all. But i was glad that i have Charlie as my tutor. Although he is not the course coordinator, dont know much about IFM course but he helped me a lot in my English Essay and my worry. I told him about the reason I been not active in the class and how much I miss Clare, I think he understood. ^^

Telling him all my worries did help me to become part of my class..I started to interact in the class, response to the questions, though i felt my answers were quite silly sometimes. After that, everything went quite well.. everyday just study, eat & sleep..no more..I did study a lots this year because i was really moody, maybe most of my friends like Sy Qiao, PuiYee & Shir-Li are not in St Andrews anymore, and YuanChun was staying in different place with me..I was alone most of the time...

After the 1st sem exam, I received a news of my uncle papa was diagnosed with cancer. Since I finished my exam, so I went back to Penang for 10 days..A really short break, but at least I managed to spend precious moments with my family and uncle papa..^^ I have no regret to go back that time..

To be honest, it was a very sad moment when i had the news.. I cried every night, even sometimes during the lesson...Haix~

 

Alright...Spent happy times with family & some friends...It was the time to go back St Andrews..

2nd semester, I have to work harder, after knowing my 1st sem results, I was not proud of it..>.<

At first, I found it difficult to start with..after awhile, it was all the same like before but with more efforts..I started my essay almost 2-3 months before the due-date then started studying after every lectures..

It was a really boring life for me..Basically, what i did every time was just STUDY.....

But now I know...hard work paid! 

I realised that we cannot blame other people to be smarter than us; Hard work does paid in long term, work hard then I'll see the results...

i cannot blame people for being is true..I have a Malay classmate who is really smart, but he is very very lazy..I know it is not right to talk something bad about other people..but I learned something for him...

He got the brain for thinking and he can do very well in everything..

but his weakness are his big mouth and laziness!

He got the mouth which can talk, but most of the time he talks nonsense..it was irritating when he was talking something bad about other people, especially other races..he is mixed of Malay, Chinese and Tamil..I think this doesn't make him having the ability to criticize about other people...sometimes it's just too over!

And his laziness is the thing which could destroy the friendship..He's too lazy..always want to ask from people..although the person is not me, but I cant stand the way he always ask from my friend.. And it's not fair at all..sometimes his mum helped him, I could just shut-up and envy how lucky he is to have a mum to help him with everything, but it was not good. It's too dependent, just like how he depend on my friend for any assignment..that is not good, i shouted at him once. Maybe some people think, I'm being over-reacted, but if u are close with him and u know his pattern..You'll hate him..even after sometimes once of his best friend started to ignore him, I can see that..

Probably, I should not care too much about him but I treat him as friend..and my friend too..

It's very sad to see a very potential people to fail..hopefully he will change next year cause I think no one would help him anymore...And maybe the friendship is ruined too...yet I hope not..

Moving on..

In April 18,2010..

I was chatting with Issac..then my mum call me in skype for several times and she said was emergency..

So i answered her and then..she told me about the death of my uncle papa...It was a tragic moment again..

I was alone all while..I'm having exam soon that time yet I have to be strong..

everything just happened too fast..*sigh

From that incident, I learned to be independent, strong and mature..

Maybe it's because of that incident, I worked harder i think..although I did not do very well for my statistic, but I'm satisfied..^^ Chemistry, Biology, Molecular Biology & Psychology went very well..and I was glad!

just my English..improve improve and improve!

Finally, I also felt sorry for some of my friends, classmates and seniors..I was being quite rude sometimes to just ignore people when they are talking to me..>.<

I'm so sorry because of being emotional..I dont think they will see my blog..but in my heart..I'm truly feeling very sorry for my behavior.. hope to see them again in September..^^

At all, the graduation on 10 June 2010..this academy year is over..once again..going back to my hometown-

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I dont think I have put everything down in this article..too much stories to tell yet I have limited memory..